Daily Armaggedon Confession: Bless me Ginka, for I have (or have not) sinned...

[ShaLeah]

Daily Arm Confession:


I feel really shitty when I do something mean to a newbie because I'm afraid I turned them off from the game by showing them the true nature of the grit. Especially if they look to have excellent ability to add to the game world. A lot of times my character will act in a way she may not in order to teach newbies things or spare them the harsh reality in order to keep them coming back until they can handle the reality. I feel equally bad doing both. The guilt is horrible.

Anyone else wanna confess and make me feel better?

[boog]

I feel guilty when I don't log on, but then sometimes, in the same token, I feel relieved because it prevents my burn out and my dissatisfaction with a role or character.

[boog]

Oh, also, sometimes I end up feeling horrible in regards to my current character, because I'm always dreaming and anticipating the next one. However, I think that anticipation and excitement regarding a role I've dreamed up also prevents me from being too sad about losing my current, to the point of not wanting to play or leaving the game for a while.

[i can haz mantis]

Forgive me, Ginka, for I have sinned. It has been 6 years and 314 days since my last confession.

I have committed murder.

I have lied.

First... I have never confessed, so I lied. Sorry.

Second... for the only PK that I have ever committed, oh, about 5 and a half years ago. It's my only one ever and I still feel really shitty about it. I even believe the unfortunate coded soul was link dead. I was but a noob-tween, as it was only my second PC. I still feel bad. I'm sorry, whomever you are for taking away that character and experience from you.

[ShaLeah]

I feel guilty when I don't log on, but then sometimes, in the same token, I feel relieved because it prevents my burn out and my dissatisfaction with a role or character.

-I- feel really bad when those leaders who said they wanted the role stop logging in, it pisses me off to no end and I IC'ly expect a goddamned good explanation.

Then I feel guilty when I find out something really fucked up happened and they -can't- log in.

Then someone takes a week vacation and doesn't tell anyone and I go right back to hating on the absent.

[Maso]

Forgive me Ginka...

PK'd a an LD soul. I wasn't even a newb. I dug myself into an IC hole roleplay wise while my character was sniffing around them waiting for them to 'wake up'. The victim was a new character and if I had left them...well....they were totally dead anyway...but still. I feel bad. I should have wished up. Regret that one.

Also, being mean/shitty to any character that hasn't been mean/shitty to mine...always makes me feel bad. I'm a terrible player of 'bad guys'.

[Bast]

I try to avoid pking unless I feel my pc's hand has been forced. I just can not make myself go out of my way to kill someone or ruin their fun knowing how much I enjoy my own PC's. That said, if my hand is forced I never feel bad about it. You should have left me alone dude. ..Wait no there is only person I feel baldy about pking. Mainly because I found out later I got the wrong guy.

[Beethoven]

I feel bad for logging off really quickly all the time. I just don't have the long hours to commit to the game that I used to. I also have guilt for quitting out without an IC explanation when I'm solo RPing. I just figure that I'm going back to vNPCland and that my PC is actually still around, but I have a nagging suspicion that it's bad form.

[Eurynomos]

>em leerily looks at the thread

Be cautious what you say. Thanks.

[Morrolan]

I try to avoid pking unless I feel my pc's hand has been forced.

The dastardly villain says to you, crooning, in emo-accented sirihish:
    "I do not want to kill you. You have left me no choice. No option. I never wanted to kill you. It is not personal. I am simply expressing the game world reacting accurately in response to your behavior."

The dastardly villain says to you, crooning, in emo-accented sirihish:
    "When you came into my territory. When you got my mate killed. When you took the job that was meant for me. When you owned things I needed. You made this choice."

The dastardly villain says to you, crooning, in emo-accented sirihish:
    "I do not want to kill you. I love you, truly. I have watched you from afar. I have heard your stories. I have seen you lie with your mate, dozing, dreaming of the day you would be hailed a hero."

The dastardly villain says to you, crooning, in emo-accented sirihish:
    "When you forgot that we are all our own heroes. When you ignored the virtual population. When you thought yourself beyond the law. You made this choice."

The dastardly villain says to you, crooning, in emo-accented sirihish:
    "I do not want to kill you."

>Your vision goes black.

[ShaLeah]

I try to avoid pking unless I feel my pc's hand has been forced.

The dastardly villain says to you, crooning, in emo-accented sirihish:
    "I do not want to kill you. You have left me no choice. No option. I never wanted to kill you. It is not personal. I am simply expression the game world reacting accurately in response to your behavior."

The dastardly villain says to you, crooning, in emo-accented sirihish:
    "When you came into my territory. When you got my mate killed. When you took the job that was meant for me. When you owned things I needed. You made this choice."

The dastardly villain says to you, crooning, in emo-accented sirihish:
    "I do not want to kill you. I love you, truly. I have watched you from afar. I have heard your stories. I have seen you lie with your mate, dozing, dreaming of the day you would be hailed a hero."

The dastardly villain says to you, crooning, in emo-accented sirihish:
    "When you forgot that we are all our own heroes. When you ignored the virtual population. When you thought yourself beyond the law. You made this choice."

The dastardly villain says to you, crooning, in emo-accented sirihish:
    "I do not want to kill you."

>Your vision goes black.

That was oddly poetic and heart tugging and makes me wanna play a dastardly villain. One that wasn't a breed OBVIOUSLY.

[i can haz mantis]

Forgive me, Ginka, for I have sinned. It has been 29 minutes since my last confession.

I have coveted thy neighbors boots several, several times.  

[Pale Horse]

I feel enormously bad when I'm in a high-role-play character and role that deserves/requires having a lot of time to devoted to it, but life and work drags me away until I find myself logging in, checking to see if anyone's around with a few quick Contact attempts, then quitting out if I can't find anyone.

[MeTekillot]

I haven't logged in when I have been expected to do so because I have been sick as a dog

[Iiyola]

Sometimes I just can't muster any new emotes when I'm grebbing for a morning. It always comes down to the same thing anyway and grebbing for something particular can be a bitch >.>

[TheHunted]

Forgive me Ginka,

I sometimes leave the safety and comfort of the city gates do to my OOC boredom.  Then die of course.

[Ender]

I get legit sad when I read over the PK logs I've collected in my 12+ years of Armageddon.  The stories they weave can sometimes be unbearably sad and cruel.

I guess that's why I love this game.  Very few things, let alone games, can invoke such a strong emotional reaction in me.


Oh, and I told some of these stories to my girlfriend, and I think her response was "I can't believe your character did that.  That's... that's monstrous!"

[Wolfsong]

Once I...

Nice try.

[Harmless]

Suicide.

Storage.

[greasygemo]

Forgive me Ginka, you know I must have done something. But I'm not telling you what it is.
Hear my confession IC.

[Zoan]

Ginka knows what I did, so I don't need to confess. And Nyr. Nyr's Drovian, in particular. Good heavens, that poor Drovian, he knows too much.

[SpyGuy]

I always feel bad when I log in but I'm not feeling it 100% or even 70%.  Then I get into interactions that just end up being boring or awkward in some way.

Related to that, I feel bad when I haven't read all the docs thoroughly and embarrass myself, sometimes with PCs that should know better.  Who knew House XXX did YYY?  I thought they just did ZZZ.  Durrr...

[Fredd]

edit: on second thought, I aint posting this

[boog]

I always feel bad when I log in but I'm not feeling it 100% or even 70%.  Then I get into interactions that just end up being boring or awkward in some way.

Related to that, I feel bad when I haven't read all the docs thoroughly and embarrass myself, sometimes with PCs that should know better.  Who knew House XXX did YYY?  I thought they just did ZZZ.  Durrr...

Me too. On both accounts.

[Desertman]

I often feel relief when a longlived character has died. I try like hell to keep them from dieing. But when they finally do, my first emotion is usually relief.